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2002-10-10 - 7:00 p.m. *** "Favro, you fuck.....you're coming with me!" NOt too much time to spit this out, not too much time to get this down, but I must and I will. My head and heart are bleeding with agony: my head beaten up by a full day of poking and prodding with education, my heart battling fits of depression. I feel awkward and gruesome in my own skin, my shoes don't feel right and I walk like I just learned. I'm spitting cliches like a big cliche spitting machine or a lawn sprinkler hooked up to a bucket of cliches. TZZ TZZ TZZ TZZ TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT TZZ TZZ TZZ TZZ TZZ TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. I'm failing terribly here, my whole world flopping and reeling, thrashing like a fish gasping for air, reaching out for life while I fail slowly and surely. I'm drowning here, I'm flooded. The rains of unattended education and the torrential downpour of unchecked work is stupendous.
I wrote everything before this line in the 5 minutes I had a break in Outdoor Writing, while I was messy and upset. You can tell this by the fact that I recreated the sounds a sprinkler full of fail would make. This was dumb of me.
In all actuality, I'm not doing well up here and I was full of stress when I wrote that. I never thought a 5 day weekend (well, 4 1/2, because I had one class today, one EXTREMELY LONG AND HUNGOVER class today, but now I'm done) would be so needed, but apparently I've been proven wrong.
If I did not do the following last night:
What did you just say? - What's he gonna say next?
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